Decisions, Decisions

My internal debate about my future career is raging once again. By the end of my spring semester I have to officially declare my major and start in on those career specific classes. When I went into college I knew exactly what I wanted to be: a kindergarten teacher. After a horrible education related class I had my doubts. So after that so many options bounced around in my mind. I'm currently majoring in nursing, but I transferred and lost a lot of credits so I'm pretty far behind. I thought I would enjoy being a school nurse but one night after watching my little sister wiggle her not so loose tooth so violently that it came out along with tons of blood, I changed my mind. Now I know what most of you are thinking: I have CF so it seems like I should be used to the blood and nasty things that go along with the medical field. I am, but seeing my blood or watching somebody give me an IV or even a PICC procedure is different. I'm totally comfortable with it. I'm not so sure I'd be as comfortable doing it to someone else. Plus as much as I go into the hospital the medical field should be the last thing I want to work in.

 Anyway back to my career battle. So then I thought about how I love to bake, I really do love it. I wanted to go to culinary school for baking and pastry. Every time I think of a career my dad usually tells me how that career might not be a good fit for me with my CF. For instance, being around sick kids, being around sick patients, and coughing constantly around food. I get his point, my lung functions definitely are not very good for my young age of 19 years old. I was around the 50s in May. I have not been able to go back to the doctor's yet because I lost health insurance once I turned 19. Still its discouraging to say the least. I have no idea what to do. What if all I want to do in life is get married and then be a stay at home mom? Is that really so bad? I cannot honestly think of any degree that I would love to have. Should I finish my early childhood degree. Should I go to culinary school? Should I just jump right in and try to start my bakery? I know I want degree whether I use it or not. Decisions, decisions.

Baker's the last name and my chosen profession.

Before I get on with my blog post for the day I have devastating news...
I had my hands full and dropped my ipod touch. The screen shattered and a piece broke off the side. My poor baby:

You can't really see all the damage in the picture but its cracked all over. Sad day.
Now back to my post for the day. I know in my last post I talked about how I'm so indecisive. Its completely true! I'm 19 so its completely okay for me to be! But baking has always been the one thing I loved since as far back as I can remember. For Christmas one year I clearly remember getting cookbooks and baking supplies. That's why I have decided to go to culinary school to get my bachelor's in Baking and Pastry and food management.  This college is located in another state than my own although its not too far. Eventually I want to open up my own bakery or even like a bakery truck. How awesome would that be?! I have a crazy cupcake book called Hello Cupcake! and just checked out What's New Cupcake? from the library sooo here are some of my cupcakes I've made:

    

Okay so the apple ones (bottom picture) were kind of a fail but cute nonetheless. At least I figured out my mistake. Note to anyone who wants to attempt the apples: make sure you use doughnuts that are big enough to cover the whole cupcake top. It calls for mini but obviously you can tell that did not cut it.

As much as I would love to be a baker I feel that people wouldn't exactly like to hear someone constantly hacking who is making their yummy baked goods. Some might get paranoid about it. Mucus frosting anyone? So I figured I could wear a face mask but I'd want a super cool mask. All Cfers know what I'm talking about. Those hot annoying face masks we have to wear around the hospital or at CF functions. Maybe I can design my own! I'm not going to let CF stop me from being a baker. My cough would make people cringe in any career I'm in so why not? To those who do not know why CF, or Cystic Fibrosis is: A disease tat affects both the lungs and digestive system of a person's body. Abnormally thick mucus is created clogging up airways and the digestive track. This mucus that clogs the lungs can allow life threatening infections grow in the lungs. The mucus clogging up the digestive system stops food from being properly digestive and prevents the nutrients from being absorbed. For more info go to: www.cff.org

One more thing: Hopefully soon I will be posting a post about a project I'm doing that I found on Pinterest!