Showing posts with label major. Show all posts
Showing posts with label major. Show all posts

Sunday, February 23, 2014

College life crisis that not even google could fix

Y'all, I'm having a crisis. A college life crisis seems like a good name for it. I don't know what I want to do in life or really anything about my life. I don't know what college I want to go to. I don't know what I want to major in. I'm a junior in college and have no idea what I want to do. I even googled it, I promise. I google everything when I can't decide something. But even good old google could not help me to make a decision.
I know this is normal but as I told you before I stress, a lot. I worry my whole future is just going to fail if I make the wrong choice (my dad calls me a drama queen). I just don't know how to make the right decision, if there is one. I know this is my life but I'm terrified of disappointing my mom or dad.

I have too many "likes" to pick a major. I love kids, helping people, baking, all sorts of stuff. I think I want to go back to my original college and either just finish my education major or do psychology. I want to get my masters in child life, that I'm sure of. I just don't know. How do people make decisions? Maybe I'm missing that part of my brain. This is so hard.

One day I might actually graduate college but college is the best 10 years of your life right so why rush it? Or maybe that's just me.

Thursday, February 20, 2014

Gypsy soul and overthinking brain

This post is really just me thinking out loud. One thing y'all should know about me I that I stress. I stress big time, like a lot, especially when making decisions. I just think about decisions too much I believe. I'm constantly weighing both sides of a decision until I drive myself crazy. Decisions like changing my major or transferring colleges or where I want to live have literally sent me into a stress induced ball of tears. Although, having been to 3 colleges so far, you wouldn't think that. It's like nothing I decide on makes me happy for very long. I'm constantly changing mind. I always want to go somewhere new, study something else. A gypsy soul perhaps? I want to change majors again, to child life, but only one college offers it in my state. Surprisingly, it is not one of the three I already tried. I just don't know. I really hate being so indecisive.
I'd really love to just open a bakery right now. That's my passion, baking. But I feel like I should get a degree in something. With all the credits I already have, it certainly seems like I should already have a degree in some major. It feels like I'll never graduate which is so discouraging. Ughhhhhhhhhhhh. Sorry y'all it's just that kind of night.